Facing My Fear Also Freed Me


Hi there! My name is Becky, and I am a 22 year-old recent graduate of college, currently employed as a retail manager at LOFT. Typically you can find me expressing myself through words on articles or blogs, or spending time relaxing with my adorable pup. However, if you were to ask me last year if I thought I would be where I am now, I would say no. I have faced many challenges in the past, such as my parents’ divorce, my mother passing, losing our home, battling anxiety and depression, and surviving multiple sexual assaults. I believe the toughest challenge I have ever faced was in January 2017, when I went to court against the man who raped me. I will always remember the feeling from that day when I saw him. I was so weak I thought my legs were going to collapse underneath me, and I can still feel the knotted twists that churned in my stomach. All I wanted was for my last semester of college to be free without my rapist, but without the court hearing, that was not possible. So I did the unthinkable: stood against the man who raped me with his two lawyers, and defended myself. Through that agony, what happened? I won. Not only because he was not able to return to campus until after I graduated, but I finally realized that I am worth fighting for. My life has meaning, and I was there proving that to the world. I was hospitalized twice with suicidal tendencies, and diagnosed with major depressive disorder months leading up to the trial. Since that court hearing, I have been moving in a much more positive direction. I graduated college, found a job, and met the love of my life (my little furball). Life is not perfect, and I deal with my ups and downs, but the greatest accomplishment I have attained is loving myself. Loving who I am is how I became free, and I encourage you to do the same. I hope you never forget that you and your life deserve to be fought for. You deserve love. You deserve to be free.